Regret, Repeat

Why can't I throw this away? Let it out of my sight and possibly, out of my mind for good? How I hate being reminded of what we used to be... It makes me think; Do you struggle with the same thoughts? The same reminder that I endure? Or have you moved on completely? Maybe I'll forget, about everything...but these papers still stay, waiting to be discovered again.

Please, let me tear my eyes out.

I want to quit, my job, life, everything. Will I ever feel like I fit in?

Welcome, friend

The feeling of numbness The sharpness of a blade I can't say I missed the feeling, but I welcome it back

Forgive me for what I'm about to do

No one actually wants me around. They all say, "I miss you Brandon!" but when it gets to the topic of hanging out they shrug away or don't respond. Why? Cause no one likes me, no one wants to be around me. I don't blame them. I'm a terrible person, and a terrible person deserves the worst.

Reason With Me

God fucking damn it I hate myself... Why am I even trying to be somewhat social anyhow? It's not like people actually care what I have to say.

Nothing Changes, Ever

I hate everyone, and by everyone, I mean a few specific people so as not to cause controversy or whatever they call it with those that are awesome. (i.e. Kevin, Bryan, ect.) But still, it makes me angry at everyone, angry at the world. How I would love to just punch you in the face for bring up my hopes.

The Essence of Us

And I smiled at last as our lips touched outside your door. I can finally forget about you, about all the other's that were forced into the every thought of my mind. Things might be different now, I have another chance...but I shouldn't hope for too much. I am happy for now.